there is something i didn't tell you today.
we were so caught up in the busy but mundane, that it slipped from my memory and froze somewhere on the outside of my brain. now i remember.
last night i had a dream i loved two men; one from the past, one from the present. i hated every second of it but i couldn't fight it - i knew i was drenched in sub-conscious. i woke up terrified that it all might go away at once and i wouldn't be able to hold on. i felt absence and sadness again...i felt it coming.